Edie and Andy

I want to be Edie Sedgwick.

Last week I watched "Factory Girl" with a few friends. It was about her, and largely about her time being the it girl with Andy Warhol. I watched this movie. I saw how flash-in-the-pan she was. I saw the destruction of her life from her time in the factory. I saw how drugs ruined her life.

But I still want to be her. What is it about the sixties that make me believe that everything was necessary? There is no monumental social movement going on right now. I spent four years of college not protesting. I realize that the relationship she had with Andy Warhol literally killed her. So why do I want to be her? Why would I risk it all to be that it girl? It's the general feeling I have about the sixties. I just want to be a part of something. I am tired of sitting here, doing nothing with my life. Even the thing I really want to do seems stupid in the grand scheme of things. I just want to be important. I want what I do to leave something behind. Edie Sedgwick made a splash in one year. Kurt, Janis, Jimi, and Jim all died at 27, but they still changed the world. I want to be important. That's it. I don't even want to be famous necessarily. I just want what I do to matter.

Who has the drugs to make this happen?

Do I need drugs to make this happen?

I'M SO RESTLESS I COULD JUST GET IN MY CAR AND DRIVE TO PARIS. LITERALLY. LET'S DRIVE TO PARIS. OR LONDON. OR FUCKING ANYWHERE. I NEED TO LEAVE.

Here's to making it happen.

Chelsea