It's Friday night/Saturday morning. Since Monday I have eaten grilled cheese while drunk three times. This feels wrong.

Welcome to the life of someone that has nothing to do. I realize that it hasn't even been two weeks since I graduated from college, but it feels like eons. I, as a person who enjoys feeling needed, hate being this bored. There is this magical time of the day when one roommate is at work and the other is in class and pseudo roomie goes to work where I feel completely and utterly useless. It's to the point where I can't even do things that I need to be doing. It took me days to clean my pit of a bedroom because I just have no gumption to do anything. Because I know that I have endless amounts of time to complete it.

I need a job.

I'd like a lover/boyfriend who is also jobless so that we can fill our hours with wanton sex.

I could use an endless supply of free wine.

Welcome to the real world?

It's so funny because that used to annoy the hell out of me. When people would say to me "well at least you're still in college, just wait until you get to the real world". I have been pretty firmly planted in the real world for some time, considering that I was in school full time and working to support myself. I'd call that pretty real. This is surreal. Here I am, in this "real world" that every one has been telling me about. And it doesn't seem real. I have nothing to do. I have nowhere to go. I have no homework, no papers to write. I have nothing to study for. This thought simultaneously thrills me and bothers me. I just need to fill my time with something other than watching TV. I do realize that this responsibility lies squarely on my shoulders. And I do realize that I'm currently complaining. Not trying to be dramatic.

It's 4:33 AM. I should be sleeping.

Instead I'm here, spitting out my problems to 8 people I know and other randos I don't.

It's now 4:43...and since the last ten minutes have gone by without any new thoughts or revelations I'd say it's time to attempt sleep. One of these days I will write a blog concerning nothing but happy things. Puppies and kittens. That kind of shit. Everyone loves puppies.